the littlest carscadden: 10 Months: Who needs sleep?

There is something really powerful about this whole needing to procreate urge. Even after a week of some of the worst sleep I've had in 10 months, I saw a tiny newborn in the office on Friday and IMMEDIATELY wanted another baby. Miles still needs SO much attention and all of our energy is poured into helping him grow. I hated pumping. I was not too fond of what pregnancy did to my body. And yet, I see a wee one and I WANT, like a deep visceral WANT, another one. Good thing IUDs exist, amiright? It's weird too, because although I wanted a baby before we had Miles it was more an intellectual want as opposed to this... deep seated urge I've had as of late.

I don't know if you missed it in that last paragraph but I got some really, really bad sleep this week. This lack of sleep left me heaving great giant sobs in the fetal position on the floor at 4am, covered in baby vomit, wishing for just one night by myself in a hotel room. It got better after that. Really, there's no where to go but up when you are staring at the proverbial bottom of that lack-of-sleep pit.

In other news, I've fallen in love. With a house. The benefit of following real estate trends in Baltimore is that I get a sense of what the market is like, I can now kind of predict when a house is priced at what it's worth or if it's too high or low, and I get a feeling for the neighborhoods our little family might move to in several years. The downside to following the market is that sometimes I see a house that is PERFECT. The right price point, a good number of bedrooms, a huge backyard, a nice kitchen, wrap around porch with a swing... ugh, I'm so in love. Here's the listing: Dream House. Lucas and Miles and I went to look at it today for the open house. If we had been actually looking for a house we would have made an offer today. I guess, at the very least, it gives me hope that there are some cool houses out there and I'll probably see them when we are in the market for a new home.

Miles is doing pretty well this week. His walking is getting better and better. We bought some cute new shoes for him so he'll be able to walk outside during the spring and summer. He still falls a lot and he had a pretty bad fall in our living room this week and ended up with a decent bruise on his noggin. Ah, the pains of being mobile.

Here's our little walking guy this week: